I have very little confidence and very low self-esteem. I wonder if this is due to the anxiety, life experiences, or how I was raised. So what does a good little anxiety-ridden girl do? I Googled it, of course. The article above poses the question in reverse. Are we as a society over diagnosing anxiety when it’s our low self-worth that is manifesting as anxiety, depression, etc, instead of the anxiety causing low self-esteem? The author of the article thinks so:
“I often see anxiety and depression occurring as a consequence of low self-value as well. A confident and secure relationship with your own self makes it less likely that you’ll suffer from these conditions (but, of course, doesn’t guarantee it). These afflictions can certainly exacerbate low self-esteem and mask the genuine source of the disorder, as they take center stage”
In the author’s scenario of the young man with social anxiety I see a lot of myself. I don’t feel good enough most of the time. I don’t like answering the phone or the door. I rarely call people. I’m not at the extreme this young man was, but I tend to isolate when my self-worth gets really low.
So what do we do? EMDR to challenge our beliefs about ourselves? Meditation for acceptance?
On another note, if because I know I overreact and feel easily hurt, do I give people more leeway than I should? Do I doubt my instincts and initial reaction and therefore let people treat me in a way that makes me feel even more worthless? I know I don’t end relationships. I’m always afraid I’m giving up before I should or being too something. Too selfish? Too emotional? Too dramatic? So I stay in relationships that drain me rather than provide me with energy. I stay friends with people that I dread talking to. Then I feel worse. Then I feel bitter. Then I feel like I’m not good enough to have happy friends. Friends that are fun. Friends that want to hang out with me because I’M fun. Because at this point I’m not fun. I have become a friend that drains rather than provides energy. It’s a downward spiral. Everything with anxiety and depression leads to a downward spiral.
What does it take to get us to stand up for ourselves? To have the self-worth TO stand up for ourselves? Why don’t we believe we’re good enough?